Once again, my Father has awakened me in the early morning hours, 2:15 a.m. to be exact, to minister to me. Our conversation was weighty in that my heart becameheavy. He expressed He needed to show me something. He shared with me 2 events centered around the COGIC 107th Holy Convocation. At once, I felt as Jonah, I wanted to flee from this challenging ministry that God has placed before me. I found myself asking Him the whys? “Why me? Why not someone else?” 

Instead of giving me a direct answer, He had me to read all four chapters of Jonah. After falling on my face, I gathered 3 valuable points from God.

1. Jonah was assigned by God what appear to Jonah to be an impossible situation. Yet, despite his impossible circumstances, he had faith in God.
2. In chapter two, Jonah was distressed concerning his God given assignment. He prayed to God and God listened and answered.
3. In chapter two, verse three, God reminded me that when we make a vow to God, (1) we are obligated to not break it (2) to fulfill it and (3) not to delay. 

Jonah was obligated to fulfill his God given assignment regardless if the Ninevites respond or not. When God first approached me concerning my assignment He wanted me to accept it, but like Jonah, I initially ran from it. I wanted no part of it. But eventually I accepted it even through it appeared to be an impossible situation. I will admit, I see my ministry as a heavy burden. I am brought to tears sometimes because of the lack of love shown by some who should extend love and the sinful ways of those who need to repent. My ministry seems impossible in my eyes, but as Jonah, I have faith in God. 

But tonight, after God ministered to me and had me to read the book of Jonah, He has opened my spiritual eyes and helped me to see that my focus was wrong. I was allowing the unloving reactions of a selected FEW pastors intimidate me from my calling. He helped to me to refocus my direction and acknowledge that I am only a vessel being used by God to preach to the lost and the wounded that are in need of repentance (2 Timothy 2:21). And it is not by my might or power, but the Spirit of the Lord that will enable my message to reach those who are rightly disposed for the gospel (Zechariah 4:6). LORD, FATHER, JEHOVAH GOD GIVE ME THE POWER, STRENGTH AND AUTHORITY TO FULFILL MY GOD GIVING ASSIGNMENT.