I was working on a new song today. I am not sure how I feel about it. I usually don't share my music publicly until I know what I am going to do with it, but it was on my heart to share this one. It would be nice to get some honest feedback. Song title is Will Be Fine.

VERSE ONE
My ring faded in time
No longer mine
But I'm fine
I've taken the next flight
Left nothing behind
Yes I'm fine
Labeled it as a fling
It really string
Yet I'm fine

PRE-CHORUS
Even though I asked myself many times
Why did I wasted my time and....

CHORUS
Given you what was mine
Should have left you behind
When I saw all the signs
Still I gave you what was mine
But I will be fine

VERSE TWO
Drifted to a foreign land
Lost your hand
But I'm fine
Clock on the wall sits still
Realized its real
Yes I'm fine
Finally found the will
To let go
Walk out the door
Cause I'm fine

PRE-CHORUS
Even though I asked myself many times
Why did I wasted my time and....

CHORUS
Given you what was mine
Should have left you behind
When I saw all the signs
Still I gave you what was mine
But I will be fine

BRIDGE
I could have walked away
But each time you begged me to stay
Convince myself it won't be the same
I have no one but me to blame

CHORUS
Cause I gave you what was mine
Should have left you behind (you behind)
(Yes I saw, I saw) all the (warning) signs (all the signs)
Still I gave you what was mine (I gave what was mine)
I gave, I gave, I gave it away
But I will be fine
Yes I'll be fine
I will, I will, I will
I will be fine
Fine mmmmmmmmmm fine
Oooooo I'll be fine
I will (I will) I will be fine

As I find myself unable to sleep because my sister have fallen asleep in her room with her radio blaring, SMH. I look at the clock, it is 5:00 a.m. I finally got up, turned on the television and decided to go through some of my old poems. And OMG, I came across this one poem that I had written while I was living in one of my most snareful, sinful lust. I won't tell you exactly what my sinful act was (smiling as I make that statement), but I can laugh about it now. Any rate, I decided to share this poem. Enjoy.

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It is a sin I was told.

Hmm, I pause for a minute as I gave thought about those eerie words.
A sin? I thought, how does that makes me feel?
A friend of mine often jokes about making difficult decisions by saying, “Pick your poison”.
As I ponder over this matter, I realized that we all are sinners.
There is no way around it.
Some sin more than others.
Either way, God has delivered this evil spell upon all of us due to our first parents’ lack of commitment and devotion.
I did not choose this way of living.
Rather, it encroached its ugliest upon me and gave birth to my imperfect soul, while imprisoning me into a lifelong string of crime.
Crime? Yes, a crime.

But have we not all have been sentenced to the same offense?
I paused for a second and laughed on the inside, which I am sure, it reflected itself as my lips started to curve as I looked into her eyes.

Continuing with my thoughts, I say to myself, some habits I am able to fight off.
Others, I revisit from time to time.
Yet, according to this woman, I have committed a crime.
A crime? Yes, a crime.
But what she failed to realize is that it is MY CRIME, which I have not opposed upon her.

Either way, it's MY CRIME.
Whether it's engraved in my heart in such a way that I have no control over it.
Or, it’s a choice, which I cannot resist the temptation from craving for it.
It is still my POISON, my crime.

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Petals Have Fallen

All your petals have fallen
Left you lumped and broken hearted
Like Niagara Falls your tears are calling
For a place of shade
Someone to come to your aide

Here I stand
Partly fade
Unsure of what to say
But I stay
To catch the floodgates of your tears
To catch all your fears
Your doubts
And cast them in the biosphere
So my dear

Rest
Rest your head upon my heart
And don't depart
For you know true love can heal any broken heart

No I can't replace
Or even erase those loving faces
But, if you continue to embrace
And lean on me to help, end your emotional race
And taste
Yes, taste my loving grace

See the Top of the Hill

When you peek through a window, there are many visions you will see.

Some will bring blessings from the skies

While others are rivers flooding one’s eyes.

They both are needed in order to build character and flair,

Either way, one has to learn to take care.

To groom, blossom and grow

Find their way to the other side of the hill where dandelion, rose petals and wildflowers grow.

So I wait.

I wait as my activities flourish through the valley below.

To determine how my heart should flow.

To climb what appears to be an endless hill,

With no tools to assist or shade to conceal.

But I smile.

Yes, I smile.

Why?

Because I can see the top of the hill.

Find A Way

Being strong for two is not easy
When one’s heart is filled with anxiety
Feeling empty
So let's just try to breathe
So I breathe
Wondering how you can relieve
My love how do I set your spirit free
I’m trying to love you passionately
But it seems not enough for thee due to your anxiety
So I stand here quietly hoping you will see
The solution stands before thee
Lost, fear and anxieties is what life brings from time to time
Logic can’t heal a broken wing, only time
So I cover your broken soul
In hopes I’m able to console
And help you feel whole
But I feel you are miles away
Its draining me to see you this way
So I pray
For the strength everyday
I know you are wasting away
And I can’t find the right words to say to make it all go away
I do realize not even my love is enough to make you feel ok

So what’s left for me to say
Nothing
For no words will make your pain disappear or make this situation go away
So we are here
And together with God as our strength, with family and friends by your side, we will find a way.